Holding Fast

Holding Fast

Holding Fast

I’m digging my claws into my own skin
Holding fast and staying on target
True to who I am
I’m being clingy to me
I am my own codependent
I stubbornly stand my ground
Not giving into the unfair Siren sound
I won’t dance to music I hate
I won’t be the patient one among thousands of aggressors
I am my own over baring mother
My own demanding child
I play possum to coercion 
I agree and validate others so they forget about me
I won’t bleed for someone else’s pleasure
I can’t be swayed to sit in someone else’s shade
Not today

I don’t want to do what I don’t want to do. How often do we find ourselves doing things we’d rather not be doing? Or worse, hate? The flip side being, we sacrifice doing what we truly want to do. Our attention repeatedly goes to what we don’t want, instead of what we do. Then life becomes barren and we wonder why.

I’m selfishly plowing forward with only what I want to do. Guess what? Nobody suffers for it. I’m even nicer. Appeasing others is making their relief from suffering my responsibility. I’m happy to help, but not to the point of joining in, then I’m not helping.

I see love in others where I am my true self. When you get yourself, you celebrate others instead of control them. Let’s keep going in this direction.

IMAGE: Jake Baddeley

Author: valeriemarieleslie

Poet. Thoughts. Musician.

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